how do you know you are in love?

how do you know you are in love?

you don't have to know you are in love...

'coz when you are in love; you ARE in love!!

there's no question then...

and when you need to know
how would you know
that you are in love,
well then,
you are not in love...

and when you are not in love,
no answer will tell you
as to how would you know
when you ARE in love!!

only when you yourself are in love,
would you know of all the answers
to all the questions of love!!

and then you'd realize...
there's no answer...
moreover,
there's no question...
in and about love...!!!!

miracles do happen!

miracles do happen...

and there are people who truly believe
in the existence of the mystery of destiny!

sadly enough... most of us do!

for the greater part of my life,
i truly have believed that there are
certain things beyond our control..
beyond our reach...
they happen because they are bound to happen...
they are bound to happen... and thus, they happen!!!

life plays hide and seek.
and again, sadly enough,
most of us don't realize this eternal verity!!!

a few moments of happiness, and sorrow thereafter...
bliss again, and despair follows soon.

so, i come to this realization
that life moves in a circle.

we keep repeating the same mistakes time and again.

with a glimpse of joy,
we forget all about sorrows,
and are lost so completely,
that ultimately, we again fall back...
a THUD!!!

it doesn't mean that we suddenly stop
being happy when something cheerful happens...
it's just that we should remember
that "this" is not going to last forever...

and SADLY ENOUGH,
NOTHING LASTS FOREVER!!!

another thing i've realized with
the passage of time is that life
doesn't go the way i want it to go...

moreover, and to be precise,
"LIFE IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE WAY IT IS GOING"!!!

in a more honest manner,
this is what destiny is all about!

and it truly is about leaving everything on to life...
to let go...
and let it all happen just the way it is destined to be...
pre-determined!!!

in your eyes.....

a flame burns in your eyes...
the flame of love...
that's traversed all the way...
from your eyes into mine...
and now it burns in mine too!!!

your eyes sing the song of love...
that's pure and serene and all the more, beautiful...
i'm glad you taught me the song of love...
and now, i too sing the song so loud!!!

your eyes are a magic...
they trick and befool so many hearts...
i know they had been searching for "the one"...
and i am glad that "the one" were mine...

i lose words... and i lose the world...
the moment i look into your eyes...
and i'd lose it all, and just wouldn't mind...
if i were to live back in your eyes!!!

the gentle drops falling off the leaf in the dawn...
the moist grass thorns shining in the lawn!!

a bird tweets its way to fly its flight...
dwindling in the breeze, searching for some light!!

the first rays of the sun make a way through the branches of the tree...
another bird tweets, a couple fly, as i sit down and see...

the orange of the sun, merging in the sky so blue...
the morning offers such visual delights, i never knew!!!

when the sun departs..
leaving a sulking sky..
the love from hearts..
illuminates you and i...

when the birds go back to their nests..
yawning the day, yearning the night..
i open my arms in a frenzy laze..
my lips call you to bite!!!

in the middle of the night..
when the world is asleep, your two eyes devour mine..
we cuddle so close, like two cats..
one night, we live our lives all nine!!!

i love your fingers running through my hair...
your touch defines longing, love and care!!

you feel my lips.. and capture the moment in your heart...
you don't wanna think of the moment, we have to depart!!!

you swing into my arms, your head on my chest...
you still wanna say (so much) more.. though the sun's moved from east to west!!

your face beside my neck.. you smell me deep...
(but) you have to leave my side.. i see your heart weep!!

i touch your heart.. and feel your beat...
even your eyes loud out the pulsating heat!!!

had it not been for the world.. we'd have expressed much more...
we'd have leaped into the ocean.. but we confine to the shore!!!

you hold me tight, look at me one more time...
and wonder what it is.. that makes you mine!!!

i look at you.. and wonder the same...
we just can't hide the evident flame!!!

a hug, a kiss.. and a smile as we turn...
your heart asks me.. does my heart also burn!!!

wish it were longer.. wish it were...
but we have this moment.. we have each other!!!

could this be an existential conspiracy...

could this be an existential conspiracy...
or is it a situation exaggerated by you and me...
the air is not what it used to be...
earth is fuming as we cut a tree!!!
but our wants are big and each day they grow...
for our (selfish) reasons we intrude nature's flow!!!
the eye that shone, today it bleeds...
'coz we live our wants, not our needs!!!
our hearts are dead and feelings paralysed...
the truth from our hearts, easily disguised!!!
we blame each other, while we all are at fault...
our mistakes are leading us to an eternal hault!!!
there's not much time to make the mend...
existence has to be our best friend...
and we have to do away with our selfish ways...
if we need to live...a few more days!!!!

i want...
love to be only once!
this life and all my lives to come...
i wanna love you more and more each day!!!

with every blink of my eye...
and each beat of my heart...
every single time i breathe...
i'll love you more and more!!!

so far away...

so far away..
i can't touch you when i need to..
caress your lips..
hold you tender..
ah!! this distance...
it surely kills!!!
aches my heart...
'coz am not beside..
when i should be close!!!
hah... i'm far away!
time... if only it were in our hands..
i'd sit you on my lap..
and sing you fairy tales...
life's a fairy tale..
i thought..
but not anymore!!
wish i could fly all the way..
wish life was a fairy tale..
wish i wasn't far away...
i wish.....

i don't need a hundred thousand words..
just give me the freedom to fly like birds..
don't give me those promises, they are futile..
hold my hand, come walk a mile..
i have a vision.. i need support..
in my heart.. i have a thought...
i have a dream.. i want to make it true..
breathe the air of peace.. and see the sky still blue!!
if clouds be there, there'll be a silver line..
if things be bad today, tomorrow they will be fine!!
all the troubles, together we may cope..
all i ask for.. is just a little hope!!

when i talk to you baby..
distance for a while ceases to exist..
the curse of the thousand miles..
that separate you and i...
is bridged by a phone call..!!!

the voice i hear at the other side..
is why i am still alive..
my reason to breathe..
my reason to live..
the reason for my heart to beat...
the reason for my smiles..
the reason why i cry..
at times all night...

baby, i need to tell you..
again and again..
over and over again...
'coz each day i bury what i was..
and the moment we talk i'm born again...
born through your love...

you weave your words to craft me into what i am!!!

u chisel me so fine..
the moments you go totally numb and silent...

my life is a gift..
borne out of your love..
baby, it's only with you that i live!!!
i live for u!!!

with water and land between...
you resurrect me every day...
every moment that you talk!!!

for god's sake........
pluck out the molasses and the cactuses and the thorns and the viruses outta ur life...
discard them...
throw them away!!!

nurture the few roses u have!!!!

ur life is about urself...
just u!!!

u r indebted to no-one!!!

live the way u want to!!!

choose to be happy!!!
befriend urself...
become ur own best friend!!!

it is better to be happy and mad....
than being sad and sane!!!

sometimes...

sometimes i want you to be near,
sometimes i want you to be away,
at times i feel to live forever,
live forever with you;
at times i feel to live forever,
live forever without you!!
sometimes i feel i love you,
sometimes i feel i hate you,
sometimes i wish i could
tell you all that's in my heart;
but i dont have the courage-
i fear you might break my heart!
sometimes i wish time could stop,
when you are near me;
sometimes i wish my heart could stop,
when you are away from me!!
sometimes i think you are my biggest strength,
sometimes i think you are my strongest weakness;
whatever it may be,
one thing i'm sure of...
you are the best thing
that has ever happened to me!!!

and as you inch......

and as you inch closer to me
in this flickering moonlight,
i close my eyes to capture
the moments of the night...

with the rain pouring in
all the love we could not,
making us realize
this was what we had sought!

the silence of the night
been taken over by the rain,
with the droplets making noise
against the window-pane!

i guess i can see mist
forming outside,
i take shelter from the cold,
in your arms i hide...

words find it hard
to make a way out,
but your eyes say there's nothing
we need to talk about!

slowly the moon moves
away from us,
as the night gets frenzier,
i see you blush!

if it's not now,
it never can be;
you got to admit
that you love me!

the rain, the moon,
the mist, it's true;
i swear them all,
i love you!!!

nostalgia gets the better of me,
as i stand alone with your memory!
moments alone made life worthwhile,
these moments have made my life fragile!!

i close my eyes and ponder back,
the moments gaze at me and attack!
i wish i could turn back time just once,
i would hold you tight and kiss you tonnes!!!

i sit outside....

i sit outside and gaze at the sky...
the evening sky...
the birds flying back to their shelters...
the sun drowning into terra incognita...
pure it seems,
balmy it looks...
the sky turning dark from red...
and darker still it turns...
i wait for the rain...
the sky looks overcast...

just like my eyes...
'coz when i look beside,
i dont have your hands to hold...
i feel sudden jolt of emotions unknown...
words- they have never been just...
tears- now they are a must!!!
but...
i am numb...
head to toe.....

under the clouds...

under the clouds,surrounded by thunder,
lets make it a walk to remember;
with rain justifying the moment right,
your eyes twinkling meaningless delight...
the breeze conferring emotions strong,
there's no denying it's you i long;
the drops of the rain singing sweet lullaby,
together we let our dreams soar high!!!

darkness behind the woods...

darkness behind the woods,
shadow beneath your eyes,
breeze brusing the leaves,
coldness down my spine...

tremble in my lips,
weakness down my knees,
movement paralysed,
your fingers locked in mine...

the moon bestowing more love,
the leaves rustling more dreams,
the stars the only witness,
of the night in all its shine!!

beside you i sit,
watching love dawn on us two,
your eyes screaming loud,
you are mine- only mine!!!

i wanna live a life with you..
with no "buts" or "ifs"..
i wanna see the setting sun with you..
from upon the highest cliffs!!

i wanna see the moon..
i wanna see the stars..
i wanna see in spring..
the blossoming flowers!!

i wanna fly with you..
where the sea meets the sky..
i wanna sink, drown, melt..
in the beauty of your eye!!

i wanna take you away..
a world where there's just you and me..
i wanna live my life again..
start from scratch..from a-b-c!!!

life without you aint my life..
i dont wanna live that way..
i need you beside..forever..
every night and every day!!!