DON'T CRY FOR ME, INDIA!!!

I write from a place where you’d never see me- Not that “I’m in heaven, you’d be in hell” or vice versa; But simply that the hell I’ve seen… I can only pray, and beg to the Almighty, that no one ever has to witness a thing like that! I didn’t know what were girls, I didn’t know what were boys, There existed no differences, When we played with those toys! I came to this world, Bringing smiles on so many faces, Little did I know, I’d have to struggle past so many races! I thought we are all one- and “humanity” is our clan; but they beg to differ- I mean each and every man! I was born- a daughter, a sister, a dream & hope in many eyes! I turned into a friend, and a hope for nurturing life- in the form of a mother!!! Was my being a girl reason enough for me to witness being feasted by sex-hungry men! Is that the sole reason a girl is born- to satiate the sexual desires of men? Don’t I have an identity, a life, apart from serving the purposes that are someway or the other merely confined to men! Why can’t I live the way I want to! Why can’t I walk freely on the streets, safely! Irrespective of the place, and time! Is it not my India, too? And before you raise questions regarding what I wear… It’s You- men, that have prompted me to do so! Why, am I not the most sale-able commodity? Most watched object? My being, my existence, serves as a joy for You! Gratification!!! That You- men, turn us into sluts, have laws prohibiting prostitution, but still want prostitutes to exist, and hitherto, have dragged us into this! And then there are men- from top to bottom, that take a cut from what we earn- our money! Our body! Men, You disgust me! I was born to live a life; to dream, and work towards fulfilling them! I WAS BORN TO LIVE A LIFE! And to die, yes, that remains an unaltered fact, but not this way! Keep your hand on your heart & close your eyes, and say what did I do to deserve this! My being a girl? My being out at night? My casual dressing? For God’s sake look at me in the eye & say why should I deserve what happened to me, & I’d be dead, forever, with questions buried with me! But if you do not have a reason for it, don’t let my death go wasted! If I didn’t deserve what happened to me, neither do those “men” deserve a life- every moment they live more, my death- what I had to go through… the pain I suffered, would go wasted! Give them death- A death that would serve a wake-up call to all such men that think my existence is at their disposal !!! But I know none of you would do this! Would You- all women, stop taking off your clothes because men want you to! Because they want you to entertain them!! Would You get out of this prostitution industry because men want you to satisfy their needs! Would You stop being hit and abused by men because they drink! He can beat you because he is your husband…. Says who?? MAN!!! Would You, for the respect of our womanhood, come together, just once, and tell these men that it has been enough! Weren’t the so-called righteous men the ones to witness the evil shaming of Draupadi? Men will continue to shame us, and men will continue to witness such spectacle!! Would You, for once, pledge not to act under man’s will and force! And live for Our freedom, instead? I don’t have faith in justice served anymore! But You- each & every one of You can change that!!!

our love would last

and one day, the sun won't rise,
mysteriously, the moon would be lost..
and the stars would break,
shatter like pieces of glass,
but our love would last!!

and one day, the sky won't be blue,
nor the trees be green,
what once "was", will be no more,
buried beneath those pages,
but our love would last!!

and one day, there'd be no good,
there'd be no bad, too,
and there'd be no god,
no devil, evil, satan, religion, priests, pope,
there'd be no thing no more,
but our love would last!!

and one day there'd be no me,
there'd be no you,
there'd be no us,
there'd be no we...
all what will be is our love,
and our love would last!!!!

our love

life is supposed to be,
all about you and me...
being with each other,
for no less than forever..
building beautiful dreams,
giving shape to those dreams!!

love is supposed to be,
what lies between you and me..
when i see you smile,
as i wait a while..
drowning into your eyes,
save for you, all else dies!!

i am supposed to be,
everything your need be...
from your morning till night,
i'd be your guiding light...
guide your every way,
and love you all the day...

you are supposed to be,
my prayers turned reality..
and we'd spend our life,
being man and wife..
living through ages,
filling the pages-
of our love...
of our love!!

i am love...

i am love,
and i make your heart (to) beat...
i am what brings that smile on your face,
the reason for your tears-that's me too!

i have my roots deep in earth,
and my wings help me leap into the sky,
i am immaculate, in tales and dreams,
but i shatter that self(image), when i meet life!

i am love,
not an object that comes with warranty...
i am love,
and i bring with a hope of perpetuity!

i flourish without reasons,
and blossom on the pillars of faith,
negate as much as you may,
but i thrive unonditionally, at best!

i am not a lost idea-
merely in the pages of books,
my survival is more imminent,
than the blood running through your veins!

i am not supposed, or paid, or under any obligations,
to carry the heap of expectations you readily mount upon my back...
and if i break and fall, you say i failed(??),
and raise question marks on my very existence!!

i am love...
and i have always been where you saw me first...
i am love...
and i am born out of the very heart whose beats i control all your life!

i am love...
and indeed, i am alive!!!

and when it gets dark
and i try the best i can...
it still seems improbable
hoping to find my shadow-
just 'coz it's better
than to be downright alone...

but as i hear u call me...
i realise...
u have been much more than my shadow!!!
and somehow u make me wish to believe
that we aren't mere mortals....
that we could have a wee bit more than a mere lifetime!!!

a cup of coffee,or maybe tea...
and some gosspis of you and me...
ofcourse we wouldn't spare the world at large...
and as we sing those songs out of tune...
rather, we give those songs a brand new tune!!
and how i play the guitar, though i know not abc...
and u'd teach me those strings-inspite not knowing more than me!!!

and how those notebooks were scribbled more down the back than the front...
the criss-crosses and doodles and the stuffs unknown!!!

and i wouldn't fret standing at the edge of a cliff with my eyes closed...
if u were to be guiding my every move!!!!

my shadow??? i wouldn't give it a damn(nor a dime)!!!
if i could have u with me everytime!!!

and how it amazes me that u,of all things in my life,deserves just a day's acknowledgement...
maybe that's the way things are!!!
and maybe even i won't say it everytime....
but having u around....
in my life...
is more than i could ever wish for...
words can't say what u mean...
but life doesn't mean a thing if u ain't in it!
thank u,friend!!

ask me to count the reasons-why i love you,
you know, i'll miserably fail!
and even if i start off with those reasons,
you know there'll be no end!

i love you 'coz you are my sun,
as you light my every day,
brighten my heart with your love,
you are my sunshine, all the way!

and you bring in more light, like the moon,
yes! you are my moonlight too;
and you bring me peace, in your eyes-
i go lost, gazing all night right at you!!

and you know you are my red, my green, my blue,
like the rainbow, you colour my life,
and you bring a smile to my face,
that runs like a rainbow- ear to ear!

you know i run out of reasons,
not 'coz i don't have them,
but just 'coz you've given me them aplenty,
it's easier not to count them at all!

i see another reason when i count my heartbeat,
you see, every beat resonates just your name,
so take it to be true, baby,
i am gonna love you, "atleast" till i'm alive!!!

I'm coming home....

The tired day embracing the night sky,
And the stars twinkling at moon rise,
You know I'm coming home...

The birds back to their nests,
And the clouds floating around,alone,
You know I'm coming home....

thousands of stories are put to an end that begun at dawn,
And thousands of tales,patiently waiting, yet to be born,
And I,for one,you know, am coming home....

So much so for the sun&moon,&the night&day,
and the hope that tomorrow scripts brighter than today,
And u know,to play my part, yes, I'm coming home...

And as u stand by the window,watching it all unfold,
On the face of the sky,
I draw close, to hold u in my arms...
As you turn to look into my eyes...
U read them say...
And you know....
now I'm home!!!!!!