As I lay on the bed,in the hospital,I saw everyone around...all eyes fixed upon me...I could figure out from the look on their faces..that I had not much time with me!
Gosh! I felt a heavy stone in my heart...My heart was crying badly! But my eyes were dry..!!Everyone around were trying to keep their tears inside of them..Nobody dared to be the first one to break the silence,or rather,break from within!
Hah! No one was strong enough-I could see it in their eyes..but everyone acted well..!
I didn't know how much time I had before I'd die,and I didn't even want to know it!
Movies to watch..places to visit..books to read..things to do.. before I die...
All these lists seemed to be futile!!

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIFE I REALISED THAT THE MOST CERTAIN THING IN LIFE IS DEATH ITSELF...
what an irony!!!
I closed my eyes..faces of friends, family members, hundreds of people...flashed across!
There was so much to talk..but I had no time!
So many things I hadn't said...IF ONLY!!!...
I was running out of time...OR...was time running out of me???
I had no idea!I just knew one thing.. that I,for sure,was going to die!
I wondered what would happen after I die?? Where would I go??
How would it be like??
And a hundred thousand odd Questions!!
Events of my life played across the screens inside my eyes..my childhood-Oh! How everyone adored and cuddled and loved me!
My naughty days...everything flashed perfectly clear!!
THERE WERE MOMENTS I WANTED TO EDIT,UNDO,REDO...BUT...I could travel those moments only in my dreams,my thoughts,without the power of altering them even by a needle's thickness!
Tears found a way off my eyes through my nose, cheeks, lips, chin...I tasted them salty!
I had never cried like this before! I was literally shivering!!!
IF ONLY I had known...I could have...or rather, I would have been a little more aware, caring!
Would not have caused a single drop of tear to anyone... but now, I was powerless!!
IF ONLY I had some more time...time to live..I would do everything possible to mend... amend... et al..!!!

Somehow, I didn't die...!!!!!!!!